Monday, December 16, 2024

poem

 The Alchemist

Once consciousness is understood—

Its source, its emergence, its substance, etc.

That understanding becomes just another

Thought in the stream of consciousness

Which means it can’t be right

Because by the rules of logic

Any component of the whole

Cannot express the totality

Of that which it is merely a part.


You’re thinking of synecdoche 

But that’s just a lame literary device 

So we keep searching, 

Passing through awarenesses of awareness,

Basements to subfloors,

Ends to new beginnings,

Doors opening onto more doors, 

Darknesses to flashes of extraordinary light

And then deeper.


If you descend at a steady rate

In a closed off prison cell of your own design

You lose the sensation of plunging 

It’s like you’re not even moving 

You start to feel the same

Regardless of depth. 


I guess it’s like a warm healing rain

That can explain everything except 

For what it means to be wet.


The kidney is just the kidney

An organ regulating homeostasis

Via concentration gradients in loops of Henle

But that’s different

The kidney can be dissected and studied

Microscoped and subjected to experimental trials 

It is an object for consideration

Socked away deep inside 

The flanks of the dead and the living. 

There are others who still cling 

To the belief that the kidney is an ancient alchemist

Turning all this delicious wine 

Into the foul yellow piss

Steaming the frosted dead leaves 

Huddled together under my backyard eaves 


As usual, I’ve taken something lovely

And turned it into human waste 

Maybe my mind is to blame

Plotting illicit strategies while I sleep

Of concealing its fundamental origin. 

If I could, I’d pass it all off on God

But we all know how that ends—

A predictably solipsistic self-salvation

Or a sorrowless total abnegation.

I think it’s a light that shines through 

Even if the dark never needed it


Every religion gets hung up on whether

You are the hole or the wall or the light

It’s enough to know the darkness is grateful

Because everything here is miraculous

So don’t think of it as being used 


There is an inflection point in life

When one learns that the cost of this experience 

Is that someone has to suffer.

This is the citizenship of the living 

And we all must do our part


12/16/24

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