Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts

Thursday, October 29, 2026

poem

 Average

All I ever wanted was to be normal

And there were times when it seemed 

Unlikely I would ever achieve 

Such modest aspirations.

So I began to lean into strangeness

While hovering near orbits 

Of those who seemed

To know their way around the sun.

I would show that I was like everyone 

Else in a way that no one else was.

As it turns out 

I wasn’t as strange as I thought

And much more average than 

I ever supposed.

But that wasn’t what I envisioned.

The whole point was to prove to

Everyone I could be like them 

If I really wanted to,

It wasn’t that hard.

But they’d never be able to do

What I had done 

When I felt like doing it,

Which was unique 

And different and special.

I wear my normalcy now like summer clothes,

Linen shirts half buttoned,

Low socks, white shorts

So the breeze can ease 

My angry red flesh


10/29/26

poem

 Kind of Hard

Once alive, all you can do 

Is that which is possible.

Only God can do the impossible,

Which is all that God can do.


While our proximity to divinity

Is obscured by a cloud of unknowing,

God is limited by everything

Real or even faintly conceivable.


Anything that happens

Was once merely possible.

Everything that happens 

Started as an idea that

God had long abandoned.


Those blushing autumn leaves,

The fountain grasses bronzing

In the salmon sky at dawn,


The way it feels when 

It finally breaks your heart.


God didn’t do that.

We did that.


Yes, god did the hard part.

But we’re stuck with all the rest.

Even this isn’t easy.


10/29/26

poem

 House Lights

From the hospital

Through a door

That opens up 

On an intimate stage

Of soft lighting

Surrounded by darkness.

This is the way

I make my grand entrance.

The audience is 

Chairs of mirrors

But I don't 

Know that.

As long as I’m 

Performing nothing

I do is ever seen.

End scene.

The lights come on.

Oh no. 

Once again

I’ve been performing

For only myself.

Please turn 

The lights off.

Oh no.

Even here they

Never go off.

The lights are 

Always on.

You're surrounded

By yourself,

All of them

Waiting for you

To do something

Entertaining.  

If you stand 

Perfectly still

Pretty soon

No one can tell

The difference

Between the real

And the watched.

And only then

(and oh so briefly)

Do the lights

Ever go off.


10/29/26

poem

 Sinews

Daddy, is that the sinews?

Someone asked the meaning of poetry

And one theory is we’re all a bunch 

Of hopeless translators offering up 

Best guesses as to what Christ

Was doodling in the dust when 

Pharisees brought forth the adulteresses.

The most successful ones 

Finish up just before 

The wind blows the words away.

Others see it more like blood—

That terrifyingly beautiful fluid

Condemned to carry the mysterious

Substance that somehow 

Keeps us all alive.

I have also heard it described 

Aphoristically— ars longa, vita brevis.

Other than that

It serves no purpose.


10/29/26

poem

 Stone Face

You almost pity ancient rocks—

Roughed up so long

By local toughs at dive bars

On the other side of time,

Wasting away unnoticeably 

As seaside bluffs 

And naked outcrops 

In desert landscapes.

Stoic testaments to the benefits

Of a long, beautiful battering.

Oh, they put on a good face,

Like divorced parents at orchestral recitals

Rictal smiles and wizened facies  

Right up until the very end.

We see them as having healed 

From some ancient indeterminate injury

Into this final, immutable form

But that’s not true at all.

Every stone you see

Is only a snapshot taken in time 

From a long relentless process

Of pressure and temperature,

Wind and sea,

And no one knows it better 

Than the quartzes and slates

Dolefully waiting for the day

When they too flake to dust

Like the undiscovered beaches 

Leaching out from their feet.

Imagine the toll

Of such endless rumination

While standing in the ashes

Of your own ruination.

We think we have it bad—

Those rare early mornings

In the pre-dawn half light 

Startled to semi-consciousness 

By something that sounds like

Someone carving your name 

Into a block of white granite.

Sometimes I gaze at geologic timelines—

Cretaceous, Jurassic, Permian

And I’m jealous of how much

Time rocks and dirts have had

To figure things out

And come to a kind of reckoning. 

That Morton gneiss of Minnesota

Has seen some things!

Well, I’m running out of time over here.

That’s the only real wisdom

I’ve acquired to pass on.

What say you that?

Here, have another glass of wine.

I’m starting to lose my puzzled expressions,

Visages of undisguised disgust,

Nystagmuses of unbridled joy.

I used to be such an open book but

Now, no one knows what I’m thinking.

I get more and more

Stone faced.


10/29/26

Sunday, October 18, 2026

poem

My Body

I.


My ribs are trusses

Preventing the collapse 

Of my body 

On top of my heart.


My liver is an innocent bystander

But never tells anyone 

Everything I've done.


My bones are small and hard

Like little league bats.


My eyelashes are long and thin

Like the disarticulated legs

Of harmless spiders


My spleen plays hide and seek

With no one looking so it stays

Hidden forever, unearned,

Unless you happen to run into it

By mistake. Then it bleeds and bleeds.


My bladder is a bota de vino.

Tonight’s vintage literally

Tastes like piss. 


My glands are actually lymph nodes.

Call them by their proper name!

Show some respect!


The weird mole on my back

Gives my immune system

Some really bad vibes. 


My skin used to rash

When mom and dad

Were going through divorce.


My ribs arch a high-

Ceilinged shelter around 

My lungs and my heart.


My pancreas describes

Its lived experience

As fast and moist.


If my adrenals

Were any larger 

The world would need

New shadows

And a much larger cave.


The less said about my 

Muscles, the better.


The more said about my mind

The more insufferable I’d be. 


My dick is pure vexation.

There are versions

Of life as a eunuch

Both better and worse

Than the life of the erection.


The top half of my face

Betrays a certain impish charm

While the bottom belies the extent 

Of admittedly modest accomplishments.


My ribs are a shield

Protecting my heart


II.


The heart has four chambers:


Blood enters the first chamber 

Exhausted and small and blue,

Huddling together like prisoners

In a frozen gulag at Reveille.

All it offers is a place to gather,

A place of brief rest.

Signs adorn the walls

Apologizing for the wait.


The second chamber of the heart

Receives its charges 

With anxious proficiency

Lining everyone up

Like flight attendants 

Just before an emergency landing,

Offering drinks and snacks 

To maintain the illusion of a lost complacency.


The third chamber is just happy to be alive.

Every single cell that bursts through its door

Is welcomed as a conquering hero.

There’s couches and hammocks 

And rows and rows of books

And an open bar that serves until dawn.


The fourth chamber of the heart quickly 

Whips them back into shape

Because it’s time to get back to work.

Everything that follows depends on 

How well they can follow simple instructions.


The heart will keep doing this until

You tell it to stop. 


My ribs are a prison 

Incarcerating my heart.

My heart is a bird

That fits through the bars

But stays as long as you like. 


10/18/26

poem

 The Debt

The old surgeon is on call again

And no one can figure out why 

He still does it after all these years.

He had a good career.

He paid his dues,

Worked hard, offered quality,

Was always respected. 

Isn’t it time to coast a little as he gets 

Closer to the finish line?

But he has a secret 

Reason no one knows—

Statistically speaking, ER call

Represents the most efficient method

Of putting a surgeon in the position

Of potentially saving a life—

Mesenteric ischemic

Ischemic bowel

Perforated ulcer

Free air

Strangulated hernia.

He drives in. He saves the day. 

Another notch in the belt

Holding up the world as he knows it.

Every year he gets skinnier and skinnier.

You should eat, his wife says

But he replies:  the more I save

The faster I pay off debt that remains

From the lives of those I have lost.

Honey, I’m always in arrears

No matter how busy I get.

We’ll probably die as paupers.

Everything I’ve earned

Was always earmarked 

To be remittance on a delinquency

That can never be paid back.

The best I can hope for now 

Are those fleeting moments 

Amidst the flurry of action

In the OR when I almost forget 

How much is owed.


10/18/26

poem

 Presbyter

There once was a man who so loved the universe he refused to accept the truth of the last prophet as his savior unless it was guaranteed that everyone else would be saved. No matter what. Give me the hell and pain of eternal fire, he said, and for no one else instead. Not one soul deserves to suffer for even a tenth of eternity, no matter what, even the devil. Even the most cold-hearted killer. Even Stalin. Even Judas Iscariot. Everyone gets saved. No exceptions. Given an infinite series of random exchanges even the devil is statistically salvageable. Instead of a benediction he recites his favorite poems. Instead of certainty he offers hope. Instead of hope he offers his hand. Instead of martyrs we patiently listen to what everyone has to say. Instead of a catechism we practice good manners. Instead of god he asks you to love the world. Instead of presbyter he offers you a handful of dirt.

10/18/26

poem

 Bookmark

I knew a girl who used a thread 

As a bookmark— a single black thread

Snugged against the inner spine.

How that was enough

To mark her spot 

I’ll never know 

But she never lost her place,

Always picked up right where 

She left off.

From across the room 

You couldn’t ever tell how far along 

She was in her novels 

Until one day she’d show up

With an entirely different book 

And you never saw the other one again.

Which doesn't mean she read 

Everything through to the end 

Only that she was done 

With that particular one.

If she ever stepped out for a while 

I was afraid to check her progress

Lest I pull the thread from its place

Like a hair on her head 

And all the pages loosened 

And fell to the floor

Before she was done with it. 

Sometimes I find her hairs

Entwined in my fingers after

A night of love together.

The first thing I do is check

The floor for scattered ribs 

Then the pillow for her head.

And there she is, still sleeping 

With the look on her face of a woman

Who knows exactly where she is.


10/18/26

poem

 Rituals of Love

Rituals of love—

Making the coffee,

Getting the flowers,

Remembering things

You’d otherwise forget.

You have to be water

Flowing downhill,

Finding the low places,

Filling the cisterns

Without ever knowing 

What is meant by wetness.

That’s one theory—

Knowing what you are

By your effect on others.

You have to pay attention.

Look, she’s reaching for a towel.

Her eyes are closed. 

Her body glistens.

Her raven hair drips.


10/18/26