poem

 Looking For It

I know what you’re all looking for

Even here you can find it

Please, take off your coat

I just put on a pot of coffee

Sit over there, by the fire

It will only be a minute.

I know, it isn’t what you expected

So modest and so close.
I was like you once—

Out there combing the earth for it,

Sifting life through screens 

Until you find a sliver of gold,

Or so I thought

Until noticing I’ve always

Only been right here.

I never left.

I was only collecting

Costumes and props.

We all have our turning point.

One morning I opened my eyes

Or maybe it was midnight

And I had fallen into a dream

But either way, there it was,

Just sitting here, the whole time. 

I don't want to say it was waiting for me

But it sure as hell didn't seem 

To have anywhere else to go.

For a moment I thought I would lose it,

Overthink it, try to possess it.

All the old habits hustling back

To ruin once again 

The grand old illusion 

Everyone secretly prays is real.

But all that had no power here.

It took me a while but eventually

I figured it out.

Here, I just do what I’m told.

A cog in the machine

Of a vast multinational conglomerate 

That just promoted me to “Boss”.

At the end of every day I’m called

Into the office and gently let go.

But they let me come back.

It’s so nice to have you here.
I never thought anyone else would show

I love you

Everything is so beautiful

Here.

Look, the coffee is done

Can I pour you a cup?

2/22/26